Things that make you go...

WTF?  You thought I was gonna say "Hmmm..." didn't ya! Like the song?!?!  So since October my life has been crazy! You know i've been through some tough times the last little while & i'm not so great at coping w/those kinds of things.  And now that my BFF, my rock, my hero & biggest supporter, my mom is gone, well i've kinda had to figure myself out. I've just always counted on her being there & picking me up, cleaning up my messes & in general just getting me by.  Right? So, now i'm just I guess finally becoming my own independent person, or at least trying to. I'm by no means perfect, in fact far from it...like thousands of miles from it, but i'm working my way back to what everyone calls a "normal life". 

Isn't it weird how people see you? From the outside my family & myself seem pretty normal, like we don't have any problems. But really when you get in to it, just like any person or family you see all the problems & craziness that happens within. 

So, right now i'm working on ME. I've been reading a lot of inspirational quotes...if you haven't noticed from my Twitter timeline.  Or my FB posts. I've made a vision board, for those of you that have read the "Secret" then you know what i'm talking about.  I also need to get myself back to the gym. I don't know why I feel like that's so difficult.  I'd go in the morning but then i'd have to get there at like 7am & then get all ready there or at work.  And at the end of my work day it sounds like not a good time. I'm all tired.  But when I use to actually go after work I felt better when I left, but I just cannot talk myself in to it.  The last week, i've been telling myself only positive things.  I can't let certain situations & circumstances get me down this time. I'm keeping a positive frame of mind & any time I feel fear & anxiety I stop & breathe.  Breathing in positive energy & out all fear & anxiety.  It's been working really well. If I hadn't been doing this who know where i'd be right now...seriously. 

So...I know I haven't written for a while & this one is all about me.  But you got a little insight into me & now know what's been going on. Hope I didn't disappoint.  I'm gonna try to get back in to writing on here regularly with new stuff & hopefully some new recipes.  Or even some old ones that I have never given you.